Hi there. It’s been a while. Things are much the same and totally different. You know - the usual.
This summer brought med changes for AJ. We are still, four months later, trying to find the right medication at the right dose to help her control her anxiety, mood swings and aggression. Oh, the aggression…it’s been brutal.
For KC, the summer brought more home visits! We now get to spend every weekend together at home. It was a slow transition, and everyone is handling it quite well. Our county CPS worker says that we should be able to have her home full-time at the end of November!! This is huge - bigger than big. It’s going to be hard and difficult and frustrating and wonderful and glorious!
Through this crazy transition and for a long time after, we will have lots of support both formal and informal. We have already begun having formal support each morning before school for AJ. Someone comes in and works on her daily living skills and gets her ready for school. When KC’s transition home happens we will have after school support with a supportive home care worker.
We also have the amazing informal supports that we’ve met along our journey over the last two years. Our new(ish) church family we’ve found is absolutely fabulous. Many have family members or are people with special needs and many have adopted. It’s a unique comradery. And it’s kinda perfectly imperfect.
School has been underway for whole month. Over the summer I was able to take a new position at the school I work with… I moved from working in the special education – learning disabilities department to the special education – cognitive disabilities department. It’s wonderful. It’s an honor to be part of such an amazing team.
The last few months have shown some pretty interesting growth for me. Throughout this journey, I have found myself. (Sounds super cliché, I know!) I have uncovered things that make me uniquely me AND I am at a place where I can embrace those things and no longer be ashamed of them. The places I have been emotionally have been really dark. That darkness had enveloped me for many years…decades even. Through the struggles of the last two years, I have broken down those dark walls and found life. It sounds so simple. HA! Not simple, but oh so very much worth the work. The struggles remain, and always will. However, the hope and the light are so much bigger.
As I look to the future, I can see brightness and joy mingled with the struggles and the pain. There is a lot we are looking forward to! We are moving ahead with KC’s transition home and we will be welcoming workers into our home to essentially be an integral part of our family. I also sincerely hope to be able to deepen the friendships forged over the last two years. I know a bunch of fabulous people and look forward to working through the valleys and mountain tops of life with them!
My prayer is that through it all…the struggles, the joy, the sorrow, the hope, the pain and the beauty – that people will see Jesus. Have you looked for Him today?